Namaste my loves. So I have planned to do these “Dear Diary” blogs where I am going to just write about my daily life, my routines, my days, my relationships and………I have seen vloggers vlog about their life and I am really inspired to see how this turns out. So, dear diary……..
My morning usually begins with me snoozing my alarm a couple of times. I have been wanting to get up at 6:30 am but these days I am getting up at 7:20 or 7:30 in the morning. I usually have to go to work at 9, so having some self care time in the morning is what I really like. So if any of you have any suggestions on being an early riser, please do post them in the comments section below.
So my day usually begins with me doing the laundry. No, I dont own a washing machine. I live alone and prefer to wash my clothes by myself. Woollen clothes get really heavy when they absorb water but I am getting used to it now. I usually soak my clothes overnight because I dont like doing my laundry before bedtime. Some people do that but………for me, mornings are better. Doing the laundry in the morning just makes my sleep disappear.
Its freezing cold here and I do feel it when I go out in my balcony to hang my clothes. We dont get much sunlight here, so the clothes are going to remain in the balcony only until the water drips off, post which I dry them under the fan in my laundry room. No judgements please.
The next thing I do is light my scented candle and invite my beloved deceased ancestors into the flame. If anyone wants more details on connecting with our ancestors, you can read my blog post about this by clicking the link below.
I love the fragrance. And candlelight just calms me down. My grandma usually enters the flame and her presence makes me feel excited about life. Then I prepare some nice warm green lemon tea and this warms me up. I need this so badly as my body gets really cold after doing the laundry.
Self care means different things for different people. For me it means keeping myself warm, doing the things I love and giving myself the love and attention I need. I am currently reading one of Agatha Christie novels. They arent my favourite but they really stimulate my mind and a good thing about them is that they have a lot of wisdom to offer.
It has been a rough day today. I have been struggling with a lot of stress at work and its not easy to keep going. The worst part is that no one can sense my pain. I try to fit in everywhere, but I dont fit in anywhere. Thats hard. I am still working and I suffer from loneliness too. I dont have a place I can call home. I do have the house where my family lives but I feel alone even when I go there.
So, coming to self care again, my therapist is always advising me to take very good care of myself. I do practice self care in several ways but it would be really nice if I have someone to take care of me. I would love to be in the company of people who love and respect my feelings, people who wont say things to me which are going to hurt my feelings, people who will not create situations which will make me angry and………………..
So, thats all for today and I would really love to hear your self care practices and how you keep going when life gets hard. Please do mention them in the comments section below. Good night, sweet dreams.