Sometimes in life we are hit by a terrible crisis that leaves us feeling completely helpless and hopeless. We simply fail to understand why all this is happening with us. People whom we trusted and to whom we devoted our time and trust seem to betray us when we need them the most. We havent wronged anyone, then why are we going through so much pain? What have we done to deserve all this?
Lets take an example. Almost all the medicines that are manufactured are bitter in taste. No one purposely makes them bitter. They just dont have a pleasant taste. When I was almost eleven years old, I had to take some multivitamin tablets. Before that time I had only been taking sweet flavored yummy syrups. Swallowing those tablets wasnt easy for me. Even when I would fall ill, my mother would crush the tablet, put it in a spoonful of water and I would take it. It was awfully bitter. There was only one escape. I had to learn to swallow the tablet with water.
Why am I narrating this little story? When everything is falling apart, when we feel that we have messed up everything, when we are angry at the Goddesses for not helping us, in those times we have to accept one thing. The truth is right here in front of us. There is no denying it. Its like that bitter tablet that will cure us of all illnesses. Refusing to take this tablet wont make things any better. Denying what lies in front of us wont resolve any of our issues. When we get stuck on why everything went wrong especially when we always thought that we are on the right path, we are trying to chew this extremely bitter tablet. Chewing it wont lessen our pain, it will only increase the bitterness in our heart. There is only one way, the truth or this bitter tablet must be swallowed which means that we need to drop the why.
We might understand why it all happened a few weeks later when we are in a better state of mind. But at the moment, if we keep holding on to this why, it wont make us feel any better. Today, I understand to some extent why things went downhill. Sometimes there were no external gains but I became a much better person on the inside. Sometimes external losses made me aware of my own inner power and strength. But there are still some downfalls I never understood why they occured. And the ultimate truth is that once you make efforts to rise and shine, the why doesnt matter anymore.